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So, I was checking out my synthetic blood options as a modern day vampire and apparently, my type is A. What's your type preference? http://www.trubeverage.com/

Well, I figure I'd better say bye now because this Saturday I am leaving for Macedonia and I will be gone for about a month. That's right. A month without internet access. It'll be weird. Back to pencil and paper. But don't worry. I'll take notes and give everybody the low-down when I get back. Take care!

So, apparently a round-trip plane ticket to Macedonia costs about 2 grand. That's about 2 grand more than I have. And yet, it's absolutely necessary for me to go. Anybody want to buy some shit off of me? Damn the need for money to do anything!

Is it wrong that I want to take off one of my shoes and chuck it at my professor's head right now? He keeps changing the damn slides right before I can get anything down. Add that to his obnoxious habit of clearing his throat every twelve seconds and the fact that he looks like he's currently going through puberty and I just can't respect him. Plus, I have absolutely no interest in the subject matter. Please God (aka Kripke), speed up time to three weeks from now when I'm graduated!

I know a lot of you guys have been going through some tough shit lately and I hate to complain, but I’m not dealing with this well. I’ve barely been able to talk about it at all until recently and I think the only way to deal with it is to get it out there. I have been rejected by every school I applied to. I’m not going to school next year. I’m not going to Greece this summer for the field school I wanted to do. My entire future seems to be unraveling. School was the one thing I thought I was good at. Sure, I’d stress out about it, but at the end of the day, I always figured that I was good at academics. But apparently not good enough. I don’t know why nobody seems to want me, but that’s the situation. Now I’ve just got to figure out how to tell my parents.

So, I'm trying to keep a dream journal, but for some reason sitting down and writing things out with a pen and paper is harder for me than typing it on my computer, so I'm just going to jot the latest ones down here before I forget them.

( Crazy Dreams )

Eddie's coming back to Phoenix! That's the best news I've heard since Supernatural got a fourth season. I've already secured my ticket (much to the devastation of my bank account, goodbye savings). But Eddie Izzard is worth it. God, I love that man.

On another note, I got into a really cool field school in Cyprus this summer. That's the good news. The bad news is that it costs $5000 and I have about $200 to my name. So, at this point in time I'd like to formally announce the introduction of the Girl Needs to Get the Hell Out of Phoenix Charity (GNGHOP). Charitable donations can be sent directly to me. Please contact me via e-mail to arrange to send in your donation.

Well, to anyone interested, the apocalypse is approaching. The day of my oral presentation of my thesis topic is only three days away. My speech is totally not memorized and is still about 16 minutes long when it should be 15 minutes. I have this sinking feeling that I am screwed. But, then, I generally have a feeling that I'm screwed. Some call it pessimism. I'd like to point out that when your life actually sucks, you're not being pessimistic. You're calling it as you see it. Much like when people are actually out to get you, you're not actually paranoid. I think my strategy is going to be to start drinking early and maybe if I'm drunk enough it won't matter if I suck. Hmmm, I've never had alcohol before 9 am before. We'll see how it goes.